and I thought I loved him then...

I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. The world would stop turning and people would stop changing because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.”
— Unknown

I couldn't have asked for more at our wedding. It started off with a Jazz band playing. Then in the middle of it a panhandler dressed as a tin-lady stepped up next to Garrett.. After it was all said and done.. a Jazz funeral walked by. It was exactly what I wanted. The donuts, the drinks, and then getting to go to the beach afterward. My dream wedding came true... Time stood still just for me and Garrett.

Every day it seems like I'm falling more in love with this man.. Only 2 weeks ago I swore I couldnt love him anymore than I did that day and here I am overjoyed with the thought of conquering our dreams, and growing old together. As the song says "and I thought I loved him then."

Gifts from the sea. Readings for our wedding.

When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern.

The only real security is not in owning or possessing, not in demanding or expecting, mot in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies neither in looking back to what was in nostalgia, nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now. Relationships must be like islands, one must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits - islands, surrounded and interrupted by the sea, and continually visited and abandoned by the tides.

Oklahoma, OK!

So we went to Sulphur Springs on Fathers Day.
It was hot and the water was wicked cold!
I got some great photos though!








Tell me whats not to love about Oklahoma.

NoWhere

This song is the reason I moved in with Garrett... If you know me or knew me then... you'll understand completely.. if not.. then read it.. Now looking back.. realizing that I actually did go to Boston, to the Atlantic, to the Gulf.. and that my dreams have came true. I just love this song.

World on your shoulders
Lot on your brain
Enough to drive a girl insane
Well I been thinkin bout maybe headin' southbound
Wonder if you'd do the same

Why don't you roll with me baby down to Nowhere, Texas
I got nothin but time
Jump in the cab of my 70 Chevy
Leave Oklahoma far behind

My good friend told me once Texas is big enough
That a man could get lost
Roll down that window
Open that glove box
Give that road map a toss

Why don't you roll with me baby down to Nowhere, Texas
I got nothin but time
Jump in the cab of my 70 Chevy
Leave Oklahoma far behind

Dallas to Austin
Please come to Boston
Cause I been playin all night long
Turn off that radio
I'm gonna sing to you sweetly
the words to your favorite song

Why don't you roll with me baby down to Nowhere, Texas
I got nothin but time
Jump in the cab of my 70 Chevy
Leave Oklahoma far behind

Well we'll keep on drivin till we hit that ocean
We'll get there by the break of day
Maybe I should warn you I never could stay sober
When I'm sittin on that Corpus Christi Bay

Why don't you roll with me baby down to Nowhere, Texas
I got nothin but time
Jump in the cab of my 70 Chevy
Leave Oklahoma far behind

Why don't you roll with me baby down to Nowhere, Texas
I got nothin but time
Jump in the cab of my 70 Chevy
Leave Oklahoma far behind

Nothing Else Matters

Wow, its nearly been 2 weeks since I've became Mrs. Hite.. and I'm still getting used to it. I love him so much. This has been the most exciting and gratifying thing I've ever done.. Everyone keeps asking if it feels different.. and to be honest.. not really. Well aside from the name change and having a husband.. but I think thats a good thing. We've already worked through all the crap that newlyweds work with.
I'm just so happy and words cant even describe it.. so heres a song that always makes me think of Garrett.

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters
-Nothing Else Matters, Metallica

Wow...

I'm getting married... =]

Dreams

I remember I used to have a hiding place in my parents garden. It was under these huge leaves next to the gardening shack... the leaves were known as elephant ears. Next to them was this beautiful plant that put off gorgeous flowers... My cat and I would sit under these leaves and read books and daydream all day of when we would grow up.

I miss my days and my secret hiding place... Recently I went to my mother in law(soon to be!)'s and she had the exact plant in her backyard, along with some grapes! I HAD to snap some pictures.
GorGor their cat that they adopted from us even jumped in on the photoshoot.

Its kind of funny, looking back. All the things I had hoped and dreamed for.. and the only thing that has really come true.. The most important one.. Love. I found real, true love!


The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you, not knowing'
how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.
-Rumi